Sometimes I don't know if being too attached to that someone is a good thing. It blinds your vision but yet you allow it to. I've made a mistake and I don't even know how to solve it.

It's not that I don't have the guts to face you or that I don't care, it's just that I really really don't know what to do. I don't know how you'd react to everything. I don't know how I should talk to you back again. I thought I'd talk to you again when you've cooled down. You think I'd enjoyed myself after all these?

And I didn't know I would appear to be such a person. But if I made you feel that way, I'm sorry.

I'm as confused as I can be. You're both important to me. The two persons who're always there for me, who listen to me and whom I can depend on in that place that we both hate. The reason why it happened wasn't anyone's fault but mine. I was being selfish.

I don't know if I made sense.

But still, I'm sorry.

鸡蛋，加油！要发挥鸡蛋精神！哈哈哈哈哈！

我可以的！

Helloooooo
Mr. Ng! Stalker! XD

Whatever whatever whatever. Ignore.

I know I have done my best.

I don't even know what I've done wrong. Yet I'm condemned.

Once again, I feel stupid.

I have no say anyway.

The only thing I can do is to accept. As the saying goes, majority always ALWAYS wins. The inevitable truth.

Ughhhh SAT is sucking up half of my live! =(

Irritated!

长这么大，从来没给人骂到这么惨。你说到一半，我就哭了。是哭了啦，可是又怎样。你问我有没有事，我说一声“嗯”。

好像突然被骂醒了。我会反省的。

想对全部人说，对不起。真的，真的，对不起。

I know I can do it.

Yes I can and I will do it.

There's nothing to worry about. He'll appreciate it, very much. =)

And suddenly, everything seems to turn for the better.

=)

Uncle,

I know you're really busy and stressful over everything that's happening right now, so I'll write this post to you. I don't wanna burden you further.

I just can't help but to feel upset whenever we talk about Rovers or most recently, ISC. It seems that whenever we talk about these, we always end up unhappy. I don't see the you that I once knew. Instead, I see this young man who's so angsty, so negative and at the same time, so ambitious to the point that I find you... scary. I even ask myself, who's this guy that I'm talking to? You became this other person, so different from the you that I once knew. You became this other person whom I don't recognise. This other side of you is scary, really. It scares me just thinking about it. Where is that side of you who's always enthusiastic about everything, who's always positive? That side of you is slowly disappearing. It upsets me.

I don't always stay quiet. And when I really do, there's a reason. Look, I'm a girl with my own perspective too. I know there're things that we just don't agree on.

I don't know but you might take this as me being overly emotional again. I don't know if you will.

You won't believe this but sometimes I thought to myself that, would things be better for you and me if we both were still single? And that we are not together? It's just so different. I felt happy then, but now too I feel happy. In fact, happier, but not in times like this.

I don't want this to be a 3 month fling.

And you know what? You're not just a boyfriend to me.

You're my bestest friend I could ever have since I came here.
You're the one person that I always look forward to meeting everyday after school.
You're the one whom I meet everyday after school for the past 10 months.
You're the one who's always there whenever I need someone to talk to.
You're the one who hugs me when I'm crying inside and noone knows.
You're the one who shares my joy and my sorrow.
You're the one who encourages me to keep going on when all of us as Rovers are getting pushed.
You're the one who holds my hand and pulled me through a long long stretch of road during INTURAC.
You're the one that got so enthusiastic when we talked about Maple Story together just on the first day we met. It was so memorable then.

There's just so much that we went through together. I don't wanna give up. Neither do I think you want to, right?

I don't know if you'll read this because I probably won't be telling you that I dedicated a post for you here. I know right now you're really really stressed over things. I shall leave this post as it is here. And when you do read it and you think you're ready to talk about it, I'll always be there.

And lastly, I love you.

Why do I find it more and more difficult to talk to you?

You're ambitious. So ambitious to the point that I find you... scary sometimes.

So empowering, so ambitious, so fearsome.

There's no need to get upset over meaningless mean remarks!

Lalala~ =D

Say Hi!

Hello!

As you can see, the blog is titled "Shoo, negative aura!", so of course it's a platform for me to get rid of my negative aura! =D

Riiiiight! So now you people have no reason to complain about me being too emotional on my blog! Becauseeee YOU choose to read this blog and not the other one! =D (Why does the first post sound so euphoric by the way?)

But still, I shall refrain from posting here okay! =D