Uncle,

I know you're really busy and stressful over everything that's happening right now, so I'll write this post to you. I don't wanna burden you further.

I just can't help but to feel upset whenever we talk about Rovers or most recently, ISC. It seems that whenever we talk about these, we always end up unhappy. I don't see the you that I once knew. Instead, I see this young man who's so angsty, so negative and at the same time, so ambitious to the point that I find you... scary. I even ask myself, who's this guy that I'm talking to? You became this other person, so different from the you that I once knew. You became this other person whom I don't recognise. This other side of you is scary, really. It scares me just thinking about it. Where is that side of you who's always enthusiastic about everything, who's always positive? That side of you is slowly disappearing. It upsets me.

I don't always stay quiet. And when I really do, there's a reason. Look, I'm a girl with my own perspective too. I know there're things that we just don't agree on.

I don't know but you might take this as me being overly emotional again. I don't know if you will.

You won't believe this but sometimes I thought to myself that, would things be better for you and me if we both were still single? And that we are not together? It's just so different. I felt happy then, but now too I feel happy. In fact, happier, but not in times like this.

I don't want this to be a 3 month fling.

And you know what? You're not just a boyfriend to me.

You're my bestest friend I could ever have since I came here.
You're the one person that I always look forward to meeting everyday after school.
You're the one whom I meet everyday after school for the past 10 months.
You're the one who's always there whenever I need someone to talk to.
You're the one who hugs me when I'm crying inside and noone knows.
You're the one who shares my joy and my sorrow.
You're the one who encourages me to keep going on when all of us as Rovers are getting pushed.
You're the one who holds my hand and pulled me through a long long stretch of road during INTURAC.
You're the one that got so enthusiastic when we talked about Maple Story together just on the first day we met. It was so memorable then.

There's just so much that we went through together. I don't wanna give up. Neither do I think you want to, right?

I don't know if you'll read this because I probably won't be telling you that I dedicated a post for you here. I know right now you're really really stressed over things. I shall leave this post as it is here. And when you do read it and you think you're ready to talk about it, I'll always be there.

And lastly, I love you.